Cus all of me loves all of you,
Loves all our curves and all of your edges,
All you perfect imperfections.
Give your all to me i give my all to you,
Youre my end and my beginning,
Even when im lose im winning.
Everything I did was just to please some people but I guess that I tried too hard, it seem didn't work out for me. I constantly feel like I'll never be good enough for anybody and to be honest, it is a shitty feeling. They told me not to think too much, but I always end up letting the emotions to take over control. I over-think, like a lot and it has become a disease somehow. Being upset or depressed is a good feeling. I start appreciating things and people around me and I start looking for myself again. We can pretend to be someone else, but when it comes to love, real love especially, it is better to just be yourself. Have you ever been so in love that nothing else matters to you anymore. I know it sounds like the most stupidest thing in the world ever, but if you are in my place you will know what I was saying. When I thought about it, people might think that seven months are short period of time, but to be the person in the situation, it feels so long. Like forever you have been with him. It is like you are focused on a person and all you could think of every single day is that one person. You wake up every morning and look forward to meet him, like every single fucking day. Sounds crazy. He is my happiness and also my sadness. The only person that can make me feel so many kind of emotions, the one that can drive me nuts. Sigh. Whats weird is when I still have those butterflies in me whenever I see him sometimes even if we always see each other. I dont wanna make it sound like Im desperately loving too hard, but I just do. For the first time ever. You know its love when all you want to do is spend time with the other person and you sort of know that he/she feels the same way. I miss you.
Something is definitely wrong somewhere. Like I studied so hard for the test, but still in the end, I'll be so disappointed with the results. Every time. There will be stupid mistakes everywhere like God knows how stupid can I be. I feel like I dont belong in this place, maybe it is too much for me. Maybe this place is out of my league. I just don't know. Since I got here, theres still nothing that I can be proud of. Absolutely no achievement. Giving up with it. I feel so lost in my own world. Maybe I should just disappear..
Sunday, March 2, 2014
To Everyone In A Relationship Or Wants One, This Woman Has Something Important To Say To You
Many of us look for 'The One' but we don't know where to start. Stephanie came up with a profound idea and she writes:
''There's one trait that I continuously find myself coming back to when it comes to dating: inspiration.
I don't really care how you spend your time. I mean I hope you have hobbies, and it'd be cool if we have some in common, but as long as you spend your time doing things you enjoy, that's cool with me. I don't really care about your education. Do I hope you have one? Absolutely, that's important to me. But I understand that it isn't for everyone. Do I care about your job? Nah. But please, please, have a job that you enjoy doing. That's all.
I really should reiterate. Because I DO care. I care about each and every aspect of you, even the ones I don't always want to care about or the aspects you wish I wouldn't care about. I care to know you - and knowing you involves all of those finite details previously mentioned. What I'm saying is that you'll deviate from what I always envisioned. You won't have every characteristic I always thought that I wanted in a man. And that's okay. But there's one thing I need from you - one thing I really, truly value: I need you to inspire me.
Inspiration in its simplest form, really. I want you to inspire me to be a better person. To push myself - in my career, in my education, in my beliefs, culture, and values. I want you to inspire me to try things I always said I wouldn't. To read books I never thought I'd like, to go to a place I never wanted to visit, to eat a food I always swore off. I want you to inspire me to be better. Every day. Because although self-motivation is important, sometimes our steam just runs out. Sometimes we need a person running alongside us, telling us we can keep going, that we can cross that finish line.
And I want to inspire you, too. I want to be able to push you. To stretch your limits and make you step outside of your comfort zone. Because inspiration is like a weed when you have the right amount. It grows wildly and quickly, and spreads throughout the surface. When it works, when it really works, we feed off of each other. We make each other better. We consistently try new things and pursue higher heights. That's...well, that's inspirational.
And that's what I hope for. Maybe it's a bit far-reaching but maybe it really isn't at all.
Is that not the epitome of every healthy relationship? It's a loose term: inspiration (and it's largely open to interpretation). But think about it. Think of some important traits when you envision the perfect relationship: couples who love each other, who try new things together, who make time for each other, who put each other first, who listen to each other, who push each other. And now think about inspiration. What does inspiration make you do? Does it make you care? Love? Push harder and further? Depending on the situation, it certainly does.
Inspiration makes us better. Inspiration makes us want to do something. It moves our emotions, our intellect, our behavior. And is that not what every relationship needs? We need to be influenced to feel happiness and love, influenced to deeply care for someone other than ourselves, influenced to better ourselves while we better those around us. Quite frankly, that sounds pretty healthy to me.
So that's all I want. And it encompasses so very, very, much, that one little word. Inspiration. 11 letters, 4 syllables, and a different meaning for every person walking this earth. But there's someone out there - maybe you've already found them or maybe you're still looking - but there's someone walking around with a bottle of inspiration ready to swirl and mix with your own. To create that perfect recipe that leaves us with a sweet taste in our mouth and a warm feeling in our heart.
Fill your jar. Screw that lid on tight. And unleash that beauty when you're good and ready.
Be inspired. Inspire others. Our world could use a bit more of that.''
-found on the net-