Dear blog, Boys are so unpredictable. They are full of things, unexpected things to be exact. I just don't know how to play this game anymore. So clueless about this. Don't fucking get attached to anyone, just don't. But I can't help this feelings. How do I undo this feelings? Its impossible. I hope I can read his mind. I hope I know if he wants to continue. Or to stop. Don't leave me hanging, questioning about you. Fuck off! Actually I am writing this because I don't have a punching bag at home. When do actually things get right? When? Everything seems wrong. All the fucking time & I am tired. When am I going to finally meet someone that actually cares about my feelings? Been single for a year. To be honest, I never really had a real boyfriend. I mean I never had a real boyfriend that treats me like a real girlfriend. I never fell deeply in love, if you know what I mean. It's like, no first love? Ever. Fuck off! Hahahahahahaha life please get better, I am tired. I just miss my long hair. Chow
Dear blog, My heart told me to keep the faith. I have been holding on too long to give up now. It doesn't matter if he's with me or not. I am happy just to see him, oh my god what kind of diseases are this? I just love him. So much that I don't care anymore if I get hurt.