Monday, April 29, 2013

Move on

Dear blog,
I think I'm ready to move on. I think I should move on. I can't wait for him anymore. It has been too long.. And I am tired. Too tired to be true. Yeah, maybe we are meant to be just friend. 

Sunday, April 28, 2013

She's broken, he's okay

Dear blog,
I want to travel all around the world. I want to explore the beauty of other places. Maybe something like "Eat, Pray & Love"? I want to go to Paris and climb the Eiffel Tower. I want to go to Venice and ride the Gandola with my sweetheart. I want to go to Las Vegas and party like there is tomorrow. I am too young to think about the reality. I live to dream and yes, I dream a lot. I just want to have fun and without having to bother what others think about me. I wish life is that easy.

I feel so insecure with everything. How come she can be so perfect without her make-up? How come she can get such a handsome & loyal boyfriend? How come she can live in such a luxury place? How come everyone does love her? How come she can be so perfect? Life is so unfair sometimes. I wish I am better person but I guess, I'm getting worst. I keep making mistakes that I know I shouldn't. I feel so pathetic and empty. You know that feeling when you have everything to be happy about, but when you think of that one can never smile again.

"I thought I am over you,but you are still the first person that comes to my mind when I wake up"

Tuesday, April 23, 2013

A girl's heart

Dear blog,
Nobody knows the real me.
Nobody knows how many time I cried alone in my room when nobody was watching.
Nobody knows how many times I lost hope.
Nobody knows the thoughts that go through my head when I'm sad.
How terrible they truly are.
Nobody knows.

I just want to love and to be loved.
I know deep inside that The Perfect Man is exist.
I just have to be strong.
And keep my faith.
Or maybe I don't need it to perfect.
Or maybe I just need a lover.
Someone that actually loves me.
Someone that actually cares about me.
Someone that is afraid of losing me.

I am tired of being sad.
I am tired of being lonely.
I am tired of feeling useless.
I am tired of being tired.

Monday, April 22, 2013


I fell in love with you,
I dont know how,
I dont know why,
I just did.

I am sorry I am not who you wanted.

But I will love you till the end of time.

It just hurts so much.

Wednesday, April 10, 2013


Dear blog,
All I could think about is him.
It becomes an addiction to me.
And to be honest, it sucks.
Because I don't know what it might me.
I hope there is a way.
And I wish I know how.

I am a failure.
& I feel sorry for myself.